PTDSD

Sometimes at night Bones thinks I am asleep on the bed, he pets me gently for fear he will wake me and I might bite him.

 I do that sometimes if I am startled awake.

 I flash back to my old house where I slept outside. I had to keep one eye open most of the time, besides trying to sleep thru the din of a hundred birds, from 10 different countries, yelling at other in 10 different dialects of bird talk, there were predators that lived on the same land.

 We had at least 2 monitor lizards on the land, these things take down cows in the wild.

 Sure one didn't have any teeth, but a 6 foot long dinosaur teeth or no is not to be trifled with.

For 4 years I was ever vigilant, when awakened suddenly in that situation you have to be ready to rumble.

 Besides the lizards, add in the other 2 dogs that both had a beef with me, and sleep was tenuous at best.

 So I know bones would never hurt me but I have ptdsd or post traumatic doggy stress disorder.

 Sometimes I pretend to be asleep when he pets me.

 I like to see the mix of fear and love in his eyes and

 I like the way he pets my head and eyes and gives me a massage,thinking I am asleep.

 He is trying to let me know that, here with him , I can sleep and not be afraid.

 Roxy is here we are all lying down.

 I like my life:

 I hope you like your life and know when you sleep you will wake up to people that love you.

Hugs from the hill: Cash Fargo Bellinger