Don't let the sun go down on me

Cant believe it as you all know from my doggy beg site I have those fungus in my head again. I guess they hang out dormant and rear their little brain eating heads when they want some chow. I watched a zombie movie with Bones and these entities seem similar in agenda. Brains eat yum.

I wish Bones would stop crying at the weirdest times, like now.

This totally sucks I have so much love to give and so many people counting on me.  Meg, Jesse. Susan. Deb, Bones.

Think about JuJu she is like my goat. Race horses often have a goat that hangs with them as a companion. I think it is to calm them down and also the horse knows they can trust this friend implicitly.

.Of course there is Roxy my queen.  Roxy watched the light go out in Allis eyes when it was time for her to go. Meg Jess and Bones were in the room. Roxy said it was heavy. 

I want to live I want to love I want a chance at the things to come.

Energy is shifting in Debs house something is afoot. I do know no matter what happens every one loves me and is pulling for the chance at this brutal operation that will save my life.

So I hate to burden you fine folk but if you can find it in your hearts to donate what ever is comfortable boy would I appreciate it. The link is on Bones Facebook page and I will include it below.

This journey should be just beginning.

When Roxy and I hang out for the day the inevitable end to our activities is meeting Jesse so Roxy can go to her home.

When she leaves in her truck I stand up in my van at the back window and watch her drive off until she gets real small and vanishes. 

Metaphorically  I would hate for Roxy to have to stand up at her window and watch my spirit grow smaller and vanish. 

If or when we pull this off I will track each of you down and do my circle dance of joy. I may have a new scar on my face but you will recognize me, I will be the one spreading joy and love. 

Hugs from the Valley to the ocean. 

Don't let your love grow small and disappear.

Cash Fargo Bellinger       http://www.giveforward.com/friendsforcash