Tuesday, April 5, 2011

This one goes out to the girls



Not so long ago it was a big deal for me to go on a car ride. I was never allowed inside and I had no friends. The first 6 years were tough ones. It was a "Cash against the world situation". 

Sure I had somewhere to stay, with 100s of turtles and birds and lizards and dogs oh my. It is hard to remember what I was living for and what kept me getting up everyday. Who knows how long I had been dealing with the disease that almost killed me.

When Megan and Jesse came along I saw my way out. It helped that Roxy liked me right off the bat and I knew why I got up in the mornings after that. It didn't happen overnight but the visits became more frequent and I was so happy to be with these guys. I did not want to go back to my dung filled yard. Roxy and I were obviously soul mates.

Along comes Bones. He seemed to be the alpha dog in this set-up although Megan would dispute that hierarchy. Bones had just lost his buddy Alli of 14 years, a beautiful Border Collie mix of sweetness and light.  He and I were not sure about each other at first. As it turned out I was in such pain and agony it was hard for him to understand why I would not get close to him. The reason was I hurt all over, but especially in my head where a nasty colony of living fungus had taken up residence in my right sinus.

All right there is some history for those of you new to the Cash Chronicles.

Here is what I think the magic is behind my survival. Now, remember I was terminal.

Without Megan, Jesse, and Susan I would be 4 foot deep in a hole full of turtle shells.

Roxy loved me from the start. Jesse and Megan liked that a lot. Susan met me and loved me. I am so lucky that what ever energy exist allowed our worlds to collide.

Bones was no slouch in this scene. When I started to bleed from my head and could not stand up he put towels under my face and made me as comfortable as he could. He cried a lot when I first came to live with him, partly because he had just lost Alli and partly because I was dying in front of him. The troops rallied, money was lent to Bones, and I received some amazing grace by being treated by the best doctors ever . I want to thank the women in my life. You know how women are--even if they love each other they want to be number one. 

First, let me bring you up to date. Bones and I were getting into a groove. Simple pleasures for simple creatures. Bones against the world became Cash and Bones against the world.

Then the car wreck. Bones' little world was shattered. Along came Deb. She took him in when he could not walk or even sit. Most important of all she took me in and did all the things Bones could not do like walk me ,feed me, love me.

I want to thank Roxy for loving me and giving Meg and Jess a reason to bring me into their lives.

I want to thank Megan and Susan ( and Jesse ) for providing the monetary  means to save me.

I want to thank Deb for being Deb and taking me in as if I had known her all my life. I feel like I have known her all my life. I now have a physical home, a spiritual home, and I really know now why I get up in the morning.
          
 By the way, I did have a lot of help. But, remember I am a bad ass dude and I am tough to the bone or I would not be here right now. 

I have come to realize I am pretty amazing. My feet are perfect.

This is the end of this chapter. Next:
 Life in the valley, Cash goes camping (Misrepresentia ).   

By the way, now I go on a car ride every day. I have my own bed. I get to go to the beach with Roxy a lot and I do not sleep outside any longer. The last 6 months have been better than the first 6 years.

I love you girls: Megan, Susan,  Deb, 
Susan, Megan,  Deb
Deb ,Susan, Megan
 and of course my queen Roxy Woo the best girlfriend ever.

Hugs from the valley:  Cash Fargo Bellinger

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